It’s okay to feel like you aren’t yourself.

I get this. For me, I felt like I was the Joker from Batman. I developed a dark humor that made others around me uncomfortable. I’ve always been one to try and make people laugh, but with all the pain I was feeling, I couldn’t help letting some of that escape on my husband, family, and loved ones. I was trying to ensure them that I was fine. But I was completely unconvincing, “Look how fine I am! It’s been two days since we found out there was no heartbeat, and I’m already trying to make you laugh about it!”. Yikes.

It’s taken time, and I’m still working through it, but you’ll find yourself again. Let your body and brain make space for emotions and move through them. Slowly your old self will reclaim that space. But for me, this was a big exercise in patience. Reminder: you are not alone. We are here for you. Be honest with your loved ones to help them understand and support you.